Where did the time go???

I was just holding this brand new baby in my arms ... It feels like minutes ago, she was crying and wiggling around and she was mine. I had waited for her since I was 10 years old. I dreamed of her, tossed names around, imagined what she would look like and then all of a sudden she is 4 years old. I want to press the pause button just for a year or two. I want to stop hearing the phone ring, stop noticing the ticker at the bottom of "MSNBC, I want the dog to let himself out and the mail to pile up in the mail box and just stare are her and play with her and watch her every move. While I have been teaching and modeling and mothering the way I wanted to and thought I should she has evolved, learned and grown. I must tell her I love her 6,000 times a day but I don't think I have ever said ..... Thank you Laila Ashley for choosing me. You are a true gift and it is a honor to be your Mom